Celebrations and Broken Hearts
Today is December 18th … a date that I will never forget. It is the birthday of two very special people in my life, marks the official due date of my last final and this time last year I was hospitalized for what would become #1 of 4 over the course of the next 6 weeks. So on today, I think of celebrations … celebrating the birthdays of my friend and cousin; celebrating the end of my first semester in school; and celebrating reprieve and rest!!! But I also think of sorrow and sadness … of just how quickly things in life can change. I write this as the tragedy in Newtown is still very fresh in the minds and hearts of this country and I’m reminded of what a difference a day makes. So this post is just me saying to you that this is YOUR life … make it count.
My first semester back in school started out a little nerve-wrecking: 5 classes, one part time job, a very part time research assistant position and LIFE. What in the world was I thinking??? BUT it will easily go down in history as one of the most impactful semesters I have had thus far. My classes all seemed to mesh and be just on time for what I was experiencing in my life. I seemed to be in just the right places for just the right conversations at just the right times – a constant reminder that I’d made the right choice. Therefore, I close the semester fatigued – yes :-)! – but with an overwhelming sense of gratitude and accomplishment. I made it!!!
And now it’s on to finding a healthy place to continue to process and heal from the events of last December and January. I hate that something that happened a year ago could feel so fresh in my heart and still hurt so much. At the same time, I am encouraged and determined to see the beauty and blessings in all things. I am reminded that life will throw some hard punches … hearts will be broken … stuff will happen, but we have to pick ourselves up and find a way to move on. This is not to ignore giving credence to taking time to heal, acknowledging the pain or even in very practical terms: getting some professional help. But this is to say that I have decided to press through the pain; pick up my hurt and try to use it as inspiration; as someone told me: see even the tiny blessings in all things. So on today I celebrate and I cry … and I am okay with that. This is my life and I will work to make it count … even through the pain.
Precious
Beautifully written….Your words touch my heart and soul. Praying for your continued strength and perseverance….
S.T.Cherry
Thank you love …
Monica
Wow – really a year. You are such an amazing person, and beautiful inside and out!
S.T.Cherry
Thanks Monica!!!! But I must say it’s having people like you around that makes these experiences so much easier to bear. So THANK YOU for everything …. everything!!!!!!
Jackie Holness
I’m glad that you are feeling better even if you are still sad…everything in its own time…peace and blessings…
S.T.Cherry
Thanks Jackie. It’s a process – right? I am in it for the long haul :-). Giving up or giving in is not an option. Thanks for all your encouragement and support – you’ve been wonderful. SOOOO thankful our paths crossed.